Fear + The 100 Day Project
Sometimes fear gets the best of me. I get afraid of all the possibilities of what could go wrong and I become emotionally paralyzed. I feel lost and full of self doubt. I'm not really sure where this comes from in me, or what happened to make me feel this way. Either way I'm going to take small steps and do the things that scare me to get to where I want to be in my career.
I just finished listening to "Kickass" by Mel Robbins and damn it was a deep and intense audiobook. I felt like I learned so much about myself. It made me question why I'm not at that next level in my career as an artist, why I don't have more shows or exposure. It came down to the fact that I'm afraid of rejection. I'm afraid I won't be taken seriously as an artist because I didn't go to art school. So therefore I don't fully put myself out there. I give just enough so that I feel safe. Totally naturally but not where I want to be.
So how will I get over this fear? Honestly, I think it's going to take some time. Maybe a year or so of daily practice, but daily practice in the way of the 100 Day Project.
I've heard about 100 Day Projects for years and have wanted to do one for a long time. I love watching other artist grow in this process and it's exciting for me to imagine growth in my work.
I'll post the painting between 9-10am every morning so be on the lookout for the painting you want!